Finally! :)

***Yey! December na!.. Ang bilis ng panahon -- sasapit na ang kapaskuhan at liliwanag na naman ang kalangitan sa pagsalubong ng bagong taon. :)
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FINALLY! may work na ako. :) Hmmm, I started last November 22, it was Tuesday. A day before the 22nd, pinapunta ako sa Claret School to pass all the pre-employment requirements. So ayun, Hmm, I'm happy that may work na ako pero I'm still thinking if want ko ba talaga ng ganung nature of work na pangmatagalan. Siguro dahil sa kakasimula ko pa lang and this is my first kaya ako nakakapag-isip ng ganito. Hehe. Sadyang, may hinahanap lang talaga ako, gusto ko pang mag-explore. :) Enjoy naman ee, masayahin officemates ko, mabait naman sila and if may mali sa ginawa ko, they will correct me naman which is a good thing dahil sa baguhan lang naman ako, madami akong dapat matutunan from them kasi matatagal na sila sa Claret. I also enjoy interacting with the parents and also with the students. Tinatawag kang "Ma'am, Miss or Ate", Haha! Ang kulit lang. Hmm, I'm really looking forward na maging ka-close ko lahat sila sa department namin and I hope magtagal din ako sa Claret. :)
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Sa wakas, pumasa na din ako sa Civil Service Exam (Sub-Professional). :) Yey! at least eligible na ako para makapagwork sa government if I have decided to work sa kahit anong sangay ng gobyerno. It was my second take, yung una kasi is last March at hindi ako nakapasa -- I took the CSC Exam (Professional) at ang result ay bagsak. Haha! Tsk. Hindi kasi kinaya ng brain ko yung Math part ee, kinulang pa sa time kaya halos lahat ng items sa Math ay hinulaan ko. *sad*. Kaya nag-take ulit ako last October pero Sub-Professional na lang muna, so ayun pinalad ako. Haha! Nice :) Next target is Professional level, need mag-aral. Grrrr!

Proof that my name is included sa list of passers ng CSC Exam NCR (Sub-Professional) last October 2011. :)

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I will never forget to thank God for all the blessings na na-rereceive ko ngayon and I'm also thanking Him sa mga trials na napagdaanan ko or pinagdadaanan sa ngayon because 'di naman ako magiging matatag kung hindi sa dahil sa mga yun. :) Thank You! 

Tugtugan nung Kabataan

Hmmm, during elementary days I joined the Rondalla Club sa school. Hmm, sa katunayan 'di ko talaga alam na isasali ako ng mom ko sa Rondalla. Basta ang naalala ko lang is binilhan niya ako ng Bandurria yun pala isasabak niya ako sa Rondalla Club na wala man lang pasabi-sabi. Haha! Sinali niya siguro ako kasi yung isa kong brother is nag-Rondalla din nung elem. days niya. :D Oo, nung una ayaw ko dahil 'di naman ako marunong, pero proseso naman ang pagkakatuto. Oo, mahirap talaga sa simula dahil yun ang una kong paghawak ng string instrument tapos left-handed pa ako. Mahirap mag-strum ng strings, siyempre 'di siya yung tulad ng ordinaryong gitara na anim (6) ang strings 'coz a Bandurria have 14 strings. :)  Pahirapan din sa pagmemorize ng piyesa ng songs. Eventually, I gained friends naman. Hmm, part of being a member is yung ma-eexcuse ka sa class dahil merong practice dahil may presentation every time na may program sa school, kilala ka ng ibang students and faculty, and joining competitions -- and kapag nanalo kami sa contest, magpeperform ulit. :) Nakakatuwang sariwain yung mga alaala na every week may practice kayo, yung feeling na tumutugtog ka sa harap ng maraming tao tuwing may presentation or competition and yung pakiramdam kapag nag-uuwi ka ng karangalan sa school kasi nanalo sa contest. Hmm, kapag sumasali kami sa contest siyempre we have our attires -- baro't saya inspired. :)

Our club coordinator was Sir Granado. His wife was also a teacher in our school so kilalang kilala sila. Hmm, Mr. and Mrs. Granado and my mom are friends, so matagal na silang magkakilala elem. days pa ng kapatid ko. Mr. Granado died when I was in Grade 6, during this time nasa Choir Club naman ako and he's also the Coordinator. I'm not sure what's the cause of his death, heart attack ata 'coz a day/a night before his death, there's a celebration sa school because a teacher celebrated her birthday and nung mismong celebration ata na-heart attack siya. Sir Granado was a good mentor and he's also kind to his students. Sa katunayan si Sir ang nag-ayos ng Bandurria ko when a fellow member of the club accidentally broke it while we where going to Quezon City Circle for a contest (kaya yung Bandurria sa picture may garter and nilagyan ng mighty bond kasi yun yung ginawang remedyo ni Sir). Ang likot-likot kasi niya kaya ayun nadaganan niya yung Bandurria ko. So while we were on the stage, nagpretend na lang ako na tumutugtog din tulad ng iba, the show must go on. :)

Nakakamiss lang talaga yung dati. :)

Hmm, for those people who want to know more about Rondalla, just click this link: Kababayang Pilipino. :)

"Lumalaki ang ulo?!"

Another night na naman na 'di maganda. I hate it when "M" tells me "lumalaki ulo mo!". I really don't get it kung bakit ganun. Ganun na ba talaga kapag your just expressing what you feel, lumalaki na ulo mo?!.. This is what I really hate eh, laging "siya" lang ang tama and once na sumagot ka your unrespectful na agad. Tss.. Yes, may pagkakataon talaga na nagrereklamo ako 'coz alam kong tama yung sinasabi ko. (I know mali ang pagsagot pero 'di din naman tama na manahimik na lang lagi kung alam ko namang may mali talaga sa sitwasyon/nangyayari.) Nakakainis lang talaga na, porket nagkatrabaho na tatamad-tamad na sa loob ng bahay, walang ginagawa man lang, utos lang nang utos and even his responsibilities sa bahay 'di magampanan. Yun ba ang matatawag na responsible??? Tss.. I'm doing my part naman pero bakit ako pa din ang nakikita? Bakit hindi "niya" tingnan yung ibang walang ginagawa, nagkakalat madalas -- acting as if he's a prince. Hay... So UNFAIR! >;(

Sociology Batch 2011: Almoite

2.) Marielle Frances Talion Almoite a.k.a "Macy"

What can I say about this girl? Hmmm.. :) Si Macy para na siyang sister ko. I can share anything to her kasi and I'm very comfortable with her. Kung pagbibigyan man ako na magwish, isa siya sa mga want ko maging kapatid. :) I think anyone naman na makikilala siya for sure magiging friend niya. This cute 'lil girl is super friendly and napaka-kikay! Haha! She likes nail polish, earrings and rings! Haha! Hindi siya yung type na mahirap pakisamahan. You can tell your deepest secret/s to her, mapagkakatiwalaan siya sa madaming bagay. Like my other friends, she's also open-minded. She's fun to be with, no boring moments. :) Jolly person siya, as in. Madalas kasi siyang makikitang naka-smile and tumatawa. Haha! I can also tell that she's very optimistic and nakakahawa yun every time na kasama mo siya which is a good thing. When your down, i-a-uplift ka niya, ganyan siya. She's such a loving friend. Isa si Macy sa mga close friends ko nung college (until now) and dahil dun, madalas ko siyang nakakasama with other friends. I can share anything to her -- happy man or sad, may sense man o wala. Hehe. I'm sure her/our friends will definitely agree that she's a friend na maaasahan mo anytime and I am very lucky to have a friend like her. Ay! singer din pala 'tong si Macy. Magaling siyang kumanta, siya ang nag-iisang may ganyang talent sa classroom yung iba kasi 'di nabiyayaan ng golden voice. Haha! I love you Macy! ^^

Sociology Batch 2011: Acorda

Until now, 'di pa rin ako makaget over na kasama ako sa Batch 2011 na nagtapos sa UST. Bonggacious naman kasi ang Batch 2011 because of the celebration ng 400 years ng USTe, unending grace ika nga nila. Taray! :) I'm so proud na Tomasino ako. :D Ok, fine.. tama na, Haha! Dumako na tayo sa talagang punto ng blog na 'to -- meet my blockmates from A to T, Haha! I just miss these people kahit na yung iba sa kanila eh 'di ko naging ka-close. I'm just happy that I've met them and nakasama ko sila for four (4) years. Siyempre yung iba naging kaclose ko, yung iba naman hindi. Natural lang naman atang ganun, may grupo grupo talaga, 'di na maiiwasan yun sa classroom. :) Okay, I will start na. Haha! (Hmm, Isang tao per day na pagbblog ko yung maipopost ko. Haha! pero kung sisipagin naman edi go! :))

1.) Rosechelan Charity Gazmen Acorda a.k.a. "Rosechelan", "Rosechel", "Rossy"

She's one of  a kind. Walang halong biro at hindi dahil sa kaibigan niya ako at kaibigan ko siya pero ang bait niya kasi. Kahit na she came in a well-to-do family, humble pa din siya. Dalhin mo siya sa isang place na 'di ganun kaaya-aya, she can adjust, walang ka-kiyeme kiyeme. Oo, may pagkamaldita minsan at maarte pero natural na kasi yun sa isang babae, Haha! She's also smart, siya ang nag-iisang cum laude ng Socio Batch 2011 and I'm so proud of her, she deserves it naman eh. :) Ano pa bang adjectives ang masasabi ko sa kanya? She's kind and pretty. Si Rossy kasi, kung titingnan ko siya, nasa kanya na yung hinahanap ng guys -- tulad nga nung sinabi ko, she's pretty, kind, witty, may sense of humor, humble, ano pa ba ang dapat hanapin? Kumbaga, if I'm a guy, I will totally pursue her, she's a type of girl na maaari mong sabihin na, "One day, I will marry this girl". Sa age niya ang mature na niyang mag-isip. Open-minded din tong girl na 'to ee, you can talk to her about anything, as in anything, Haha! Loka-loka din siya minsan, Haha! Art lover si Rossy. If there's a chance, pumupunta siya sa mga art exhibits with Shayne and friends. Music lover din 'to ee, trip niya ang progressive music. :) Sa kasalukuyan, law student siya sa USTe. It's her dream talaga na mag-Law School. I believe in her na kaya niya ang Law School kahit mahirap/sobrang hirap, samahan pa ng mga heavygat na Professors/Lawyers/Justices/Chief Justice, Haha! Definitely, she'll fulfill her dreams. :)

I love you Rossy! :) I miss you! 

I Remember by Joaquin Alejandro F. Ambata

"I remember" by Joaquin Alejandro F. Ambata. I admire this guy for his drive and passion niya to make wonderful videos like this one. Sa pagkakaalam ko ito yung una niyang ginawang video when he got his new "baby". Haha! Ito yung ginawa niyang video as part of his course portfolio in Seminars in Sociology nung 4th year kami, to be exact, hmmm.. 8 months ago. Nung napanuod ko 'to for the first time, from the beginning 'til the end I was just smiling. :) Nakakatuwa and nakaka-inspire. Yes, I don't know the technicalities when it comes to videography but I think naiparating naman niya yung message na gusto niyang iparating sa audience. Good job Wacky! :)

***Ito marahil yung epekto kapag walang ginagawa at nagbbrowse lang ng video na mapapanuod. But there's one thing that I'm sure of, namimiss ko na lahat nang nakasama ko during my college life and my memories with them. :)

Angry Birds Attack!

This is not mine, sa pamangkin ko 'to. Haha! Ang cute! May angry birds na laro, "literal" na laruan. :) Ang masasabi ko lang is mas mahirap pa din laruin yung virtual version nito, grabeng PATIENCE! Angry Birds Attack! ;D

Alfred Ken Nathaniel, I love you! :)

If I'm your classmate, I will definitely have a crush on you! Haha! 'Coz your cute and matalino kahit na masungit ka sa girls.. :)

The kid on the picture is my pamangkin, son of my Kuya Alvin. He turned 4 last September 16, there's a party in his school kasi nakaugalian na ganun sa kanila and after that nag-Ocean Park sila nina Mommy Mena and Daddy Alvin niya . :) Yey! ^^,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAT-NAT! Tita Kai loves you kahit na lagi mo kong inaaway :)

Agony in Silence

SILENCE? What does it mean? Silence has a lot of meaning. To some people, silence could mean tranquility, serenity, and peace. But to others, silence could mean pain, agony or distress. 

When I can't express myself when I'm disappointed or angry (most of the time about family matters), I choose to be silent. The feeling of "silence in pain" is kakaiba -- you are screaming inside, you can hear your thoughts passing fluidly and you can feel and hear the sound of your heart beating. In between that silence, you'll have your realizations about things that you are going through. You'll question your self, "Was it really my fault? Kasalanan ko ba talaga? Why am I always the one at fault? Am I really worthless? Lagi na lang bang ganito?". But in some cases, silence can make what you are feeling worse. Dyan na kasi pumapasok yung pagtatanim ng grudge to that person whom you have unsettled issue/s kahit na you're saying to your self not to take grudge on anyone PERO 'di kasi maiiwasan (in my own point of view). Yung mga unsettled issues na dati pa is bumabalik and dumadagdag sa present issue/s. Some people might ask, "Why don't you confront that person?" I tried to confront her (EXAMPLE: my mom) pero failed. I was calm naman when I did that. Of course, every mom thinks that when her son/daughter is sumagot even in a calm way it's unrespectful na. It was never my intention to win kapag nagkakaroon kami ng "sagutan", all I wanted is "to be heard." I'm not over-reacting but my mom is like, "I'm always right" and close-minded. She's that kind of person. Kung ano yung pinaniniwalaan niyang tama, yun lang. I'm the youngest and the ONLY girl na anak niya, pero bakit sa'kin 'di man lang magawang makinig? And how can I be heard if madalas na kauuwian is away and nagagalit agad kakasimula ko lang magsalita when it was my turn? Sometimes kahit na want ko na talagang magsalita pinipigilan ko na lang self ko 'coz I know wala ding kakauwiang maganda and then I'll end up crying in my room and my thoughts starts screaming inside my head. I'll just cry hanggang sa makakatulog na pala ako. It's sad to think na makakatulog ka dahil napagod ka na kakaiyak.

I have read a quote ang sabi, "Silence is the most powerful scream", well I do believe in this quote kasi madalas akong ganyan lalo na when I'm restricted to express what I really feel. I just go inside my room and in silence, all of my thoughts are screaming inside my head na. I can also relate to this quote by Elbert Hubbard,  "He who does not understand your silence will probably not understand your words." <-- This quote explains it all.

***Mahirap na manatili na lang na tahimik sa tuwing may problemang kinakaharap at mahirap din na kumausap ng isang indibidwal na hindi magawang matutunang makinig.

Can't get rid of IT...

Hay,, :( I am so down this week. So many issues and I can't get rid of it. I know that problems will make me stronger as a person pero nakakabaliw minsan. I tried to ignore it many times pero I'm still affected. Siguro ganun talaga because I am part of this family and I'm "IN" it. Yeah, there were times naman that I got tired of thinking those things and I'm wishing na ganun na lang palagi or manhid na lang ako.

If I will ask myself if mature na ba ako, masasabi ko hindi pa TOTALLY  (but I'm really trying) 'coz there are things in my life that I can't face or fully accept.

Being a crybaby? Yup, ganyan ako. Madali talaga akong maiyak. Sometimes, kahit sa sobrang inis ko lang naiiyak na ako.

Can't wait for my future babies! :)

I'm not a professional photographer or a self-confessed photographer, I just love looking at pictures or taking pictures and I have this great affection for cameras - either it's digital or film. :) It all started when I was in college. Pahawak-hawak lang ng DSLR of my friends then click lang ng click. Of course, as we all know, kapag DSLR gamit iba yung kalalabasan ng picture, HQ (high quality) unlike to ordinary digi cams. All I can say is iba kasi yung feeling kapag nakakakuha ka ng magandang picture parang achievement na siya for me. Haha!, Yup! thanks sa DSLR for its amazing specs etc. etc. pero siyempre nasa kumukuha pa din nakasalalay yung ikagaganda nung larawan. Because of that experience, there's a part of me na, "Gusto ko maging photographer" -- photography as a hobby, photography as a passion. Kaya once na nagkawork na ako, i'll be thrifty. Haha! Kapag nangyari na yun, I will buy worth-paying cameras (digital or film) and I will treat them as my babies. Haha! Mga target kong bibilhin ay: (instant cams muna, may kamahalan kasi ang DSLR kaya next time na yun. Haha!)

• Polaroid 300 Instant camera
• White Fuji Instax Mini 7s
• Fuji Instax 210
• White Fuji Instax Mini 25s
• Piano Black Fuji Instax Mini 50s

Isa din sa mga binabalik ko in the future is to join any circle, team or guild of photographers na nagpophotowalk. :) 'Coz I think it will be a wonderful experience for me kasi makakakilala ako ng mga bihasa na sa ganung larangan, mga photography enthusiast and for sure I will learn a lot from them. That experience will be a dream come true. :) I can't wait for it to happen. Haha! Futuristic kasi talaga ako..

If you're interested to buy any Fuji Instax cam, just go to these sites, Polaroid PH | Instax Manila Philippines
and Instax Manila.

Go! and be instant... :)

Like Mother, like Daughter??, Nah! I Don't Think So

P.S. This post is not to talk "bad" things about my mom, I just want to release all the things inside me that I can't share to others or even to my mom 'coz for sure she'll not understand. First entry pa lang 'to about this topic.

WHY? oh, why?

Hmm.. Bakit nga ba ako gumawa ng account sa blogspot?? Well, it's not my goal na magkaroon ng madaming followers dito I just want to post anything I want to say or anything I want to share.. :) I also have my Tumblr account na mahal na mahal ko kahit na reblog ng reblog lang ako palagi because of the amazing pictures from the awesome people that I follow -- pero I don't know pero "parang" mas free lang ako na mag-share dito.. :) I'm random pagdating sa pagpapaskil ng mga sarili kong posts.. :) Haha! I have my mood-swings.. I will share anything, as in ANYTHING -- kahit anong topic pa yan.. :D Hmm, there will be times na 'di ako makakapag-update pero Go lang! :) That's all!! ^^,

Unica Hija

* FILIPINO time! Masaya tuwing subject namin eh Filipino, nakakatuwa kasi si Ma'am, happy talaga kapag class niya kaya isa siya sa mga paborito ko. :) Hmm. Anyways, Haha! gawa ko 'to nung Filipino time namin nung 3rd year college pa ko. Haha. Nakakatuwa lang kasi naitago ko pa. :) Assignment ata 'to ee, kailangan guamawa ng paragraph about sa sarili ata or 'bout sa family. Kaya ito, ito yung nagawa ko. Haha! 'Di naman ako magaling sa paggawa ng mga ganitong bagay o sa pagkukwento ng buhay pero nakakuha ako ng 20/20 dyan. Hihihihi :D
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*Astig 'tong slumbook na 'to. KAKAIBA. Modern slumbook na kasi. :) Haha! Kakaiba na yung mga tanong sa loob 'di tulad nang mga slumbook dati, ngayon kasi may twist na, halatang mapaglaro ang imahinasyon nung gumawa. Sayang wala akong picture nung laman pero bili kayo para makita niyo and to experience the "modern slumbook". Haha! Enjoy sumagot, nakakatawang mga tanong parang ewan lang. Haha! Joke lang. :) Pero nice talaga. :) You can buy directly the "Akala mo lang wala nang slumbook pero MERON MERON, MERON!" Tanso Edition to wittywillsavetheworld (wittywillsavetheworld@gmail.com) or to their partner stores like Analog Soul.

Kapag wala akong magawa, ito ang nagiging libangan ko. :) DOODLE TIME! This is not the first time, yung iba kasi nasa silya ng AB (UST) Haha! Hmm, yup guilty ako sa pagvavandalize ng silya nung college days kaya sorry po sa mga napeperwisyo at nagpapakahirap na maglinis ng armchairs every sembreak or summer vacation. Peace po! :)